I was scrolling through my old entries and realized I created this account over a year ago! It’s amazing how time flies! This time, last year, I was preparing to make a 10-hour trip home for the Thanksgiving holiday. I was pretty engulfed in my eating disorder and depression, so I wasn’t able to enjoy the company of family or the food. This year, however, I plan to be present, eat delicious food until I’m satisfied, and give thanks for the many blessings I have. It’s true, 2017 has been one of the most difficult years to date, but it has also been a year filled with many invaluable life lessons.
Life Lesson #1: The quote, “‘Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all,” is 100% true. After my engagement ended, I was hurt, bitter, and resentful for ever having fallen in love. The healing process was long and
painful, and to be honest, I am still healing. Through it all, I realized that our love story was special and unforgettable– in the end, it just wasn’t meant to be. And, that’s okay. I thank God him and I are still friends even after all the hurt; if that isn’t a true testament of God’s will, than I don’t know what is.
Life Lesson #2: Family is everything. No matter how many times I fall, they always help me get back up. My mom spent countless hours consoling me this year. She always calls me her “rock,” but I think it’s the other way around; without her unwavering support and advice, I would never have been able to rise from rock bottom. And, my dad– he let me (and my 2 dogs) move back into my childhood home after being gone for over 6 years. He cooks for me, makes me laugh when I am upset, and tolerates my furry children, even though they eat his shoes and tear up his mail!
Life Lesson #3: Cherish moments with loved ones. My grandfather is in the late stages of dementia, and he no longer remembers who I am. It is heartbreaking (and a bit comical) that he thinks my brother and I are a couple. Watching him deteriorate makes me wish I had been more present on previous visits; I wish I had listened more closely to his stories, and I wish I would have been more eager to help him with housework. Now, he is unable to form more than a few coherent sentences, and his ailing body forces him to live a sedentary lifestyle. I can’t change the past, but I can certainly make
the most of the moments I have left with him!
Life Lesson #4: As my mom always tells me, “Patience is a virtue, my dear.” I am the most impatient person on this planet– ask anyone! So when my life turned upside down, I never thought it would turn right-side-up. With a little patience, however, I managed to settle down in my hometown, land a great job, and get my health back on track. I am even dating again! Slowly, but surely, things are falling into place. I know God has a master plan for me– I just need to trust in Him and be patient as it all unfolds.
As 2017 nears the end, I hope all of you take a moment to count your blessings. There is a lot of bad in this world, but there is also so much good and so much to be thankful for!